INTERVIEW!!!! ME? YES! Thursday! in retail! I must have!

 Ever feel like life is just moving to fast for you? Kinda like you are just watching it not living it. Like a video game where you can control what happens, decide what path the character will take, but when they fight an enemy and get hurt...it's just a game so you don't feel it. It might not be a bad thing, there are no tears involved. There is no crying yourself to sleep or self injury. Just numbness, but not the Linkin Park emo kind...just sorta detached...And really you can play the game for hours on end, figure out every skill the character possess but in the end, you can't really be them. And what happens when you turn the game off? you've invested all your energy and time in leveling up the character and focusing on their mission, but what about you? Now you haven't the character's skills to lean on anymore, and you don't have a clear cut goal and you haven't put time into thinking one up. You don't even know what you like or want. That's frightening. It's terrifying to be so lost. But maybe it's even more dreadful to not feel and lie to yourself and everyone around you. YOu aren't that strong character, you can't vanquish monsters and walk on water and your acting is only so-so...and if you don't at least try to be the character..then what will happen to you when the monsters come and you have to fight them?  

I feel like i've jumped into the deep end before learning how to swim. And the terrifying thing is, i'm not scared.

I wish I was rich. Then I would have sweet cloths and Davey and Jade (yes even Jade) would go, Wow look at that girl. She is SOOO stylish I want to be her friend. Because they are superficial like that.. Um...What i'm trying to say is. YAYOMGCONCERTINACOUPLEOFDAYSWAITNOONLYTWODAYSGAHI"MNOTREADYBUTYAYBLAQKAUDIOMONKEYSEXHEHEH. 

Jade's head looks HUGE....I guess that means he is smart. Good for him!
My guitar might be broken...and not cause i smashed it like a rock star...no...not like that...beause the things that hold the strings may have developed a ridge by being warn away from playing and now they need to be filed down or replaced or my strings will keep on breaking ;_; now I too am broken inside. 
OH i went to a wedding show today. Man poeple are so unoriginal, All the shit, like invites and table settings, cakes, flowers and dresses all look the same to me. Why not do something less expensive and more exciting. I mean marrige is about to poeple...who are crazy and think...uh...Lets make it illegal for us to separat and see other poeple. (I don't understand) anyways..so it should reflect their personalities. SO i was thinking. What if i lost my mind and desided to marry some dude. My wedding would reflect me and hopefully him (for the sake of this entry lets pretend he is me but as a boy). A ZOMBIE WEDDING. ok...welll halloween. but like in a gothic manson and skeletons and body bags hanging form the ceiling and it would be dark and candle lit but then they woudl be playing pop music. if i was rich i'd higher super junoir. and if you aren't dressed up as something...you can't get in!. The invites would be scrolls stuck inside little coffins and signed with blood. I want it to be tacky! and fun. My dress would be a dull white with several skirts all tattered at the ends and a very simple fitted bodice with one broken strap. It would be covered in blood (fake blood) and my makeup would make me look like a zombie. RAWR...

OKay now you go! If you had to have a wedding what would it be like? theme?